-Our ❤-

2010年10月29日

方向

安全感少了,我变得爱哭了...


原来你可以给我的情绪带来那么大的波动
我好累,累在为什么要一直委屈自己
埋藏自己的脾气,埋藏自己的情绪
该生气的选择不气,该不理你的却还跟你紧靠一起
不能忍受的动作,字眼
我也把气往肚子大力地吞下去
疑心病重得不像话,却也只能自己猜测,烦恼
甚至最不能原谅的,我原谅了
我为什么能够闭一只眼然后说没关系
我为什么可以盲目到这样的地步
我真的有够欠揍,对吧?


你从来都不知道,很多事情我因你而改变
不说,因为想让你来察觉

反而,我察觉你变了
多了份容忍,少了份脾气
但我却矛盾地认为你是在赎罪
从前我喜欢这样的你,
现在竟然带着点恐惧感


原来爱情到了某种程度就会出现忍让
不辛的是,多数只会出现在其中一方


我们的爱情,发展到什么程度?
就连闹个脾气也不行的程度?
耍个脾气,只想听到你疼惜的话
却让你一枪毙命
以前的你,去了那里?

冲动的想要离开,
却不舍得的退缩
不是不爱,只是累了.
方向感弱了.

没有人比我更懂得爱你,
但我却学不会怎么好好爱我自己.

因为你而灿烂,
也因为你而受伤.



我贪婪的,
是你的拥抱
它最温柔,最真.


你还能够爱我多久?

2010年10月27日

200天

好快,我们在一起200天了呢.
没有太夸张的心情
只觉得不可思议
距离一年还有165天.
能不能到是另一回事
珍惜现在拥有的一切
不受任何打击就好

  我爱你

2010年10月24日

彼此

这场雨来得有点突然 落在车窗上变得自然
述说着你我他 长大后的改变
思想中的不成熟 谁又有自知之明
总是无所谓的自己 不太了解其中意义
如果只有点头问好 会不会更加实际

跟着环境的转变 自我保护意识强烈
出口伤人的诀窍 为了只是突显那一丁点的高傲
朋友之间的沟通 偶尔也和爱情一样不能妥协
唯一的不同 是伤及对方感情之后
还能坐下来一起喝茶 聊天

生活中如果少了争执 即像白开水无色又无味
完美的一切 说得难听也只不过是骗人的小伎俩
不要埋怨身边的人有多糟
因为他们也一样埋怨身边的人
古人说 :''知足常乐''
这句话 想必考倒大家 因为也同样考倒我

每个人性格的差异 可以从陌生到相遇
也算是一种福气

2010年10月23日

Drug❤

You just like a drug
And I Can't stop taking this drug...
I Must be a Crazy girl,
Can you Slap me and wake me up?
I Love you more and more each day~
The feeling is getting stonger
and I Getting Crazier ><''
hope that I can forget Everything we did it to each other
All bad thing of coz,
then we wil only left those Sweet Memories
Good right?

Tell me how much you love me now.

I miss you .... =(



We Are Perfect.
I Love it

STPM

STPM is around the corner,
Ain't feeling suffer,yet I'm expected!!
People is getting worried but I got no Feeling.xDD
I hope faster end this stupid exam and leave that Suck school!!
Wish to have a trip with BaBe and friends after my exam~~
Celebrate my 19th birthday with you guys~^^

by the way,today was 23th Oct,and my STPM on 23th Nov
Cool,1 month zhun zhun to go~~~lalala~~
Exam until 15th Dec and after shake leg at home and lepak around~xD
After that January have to start working dy...
if not my mom sure sakai my head!


Well,wish me luck for my STPM
Don't fail all then thanks God dy~haha

2010年10月21日

2010'2010

Nothing special on yesterday,
I had a Sleepless night because waiting for someone.
and I only slept for 3 hours ><''
I guess not really reach 3 hours ==
waiting from 8.44pm until 4.54 am
and wake up on 6.18 am prepare to school
No 3hours Right?
I totally is an iron women! xD
I don't how I spended my whole night,
chating with pokemon,ppstream,and listen to music....
A Very suffer night!!
I turn my anger to worried at the end...
and today,when I Read newspaper and found it got accident in Penang town,
my heart feel like droppped....
Well,now everything is okies and I Don't wanna start any war....
Forget and Forgive again.

What I try to say is,No matter how...Please give me a msg before you sleep.

2010年10月19日

全军覆没

我很厉害
试考成绩全军覆没
写到纸都快完蛋,竟然抛给我一句
''Skema awak Salah,jadi saya tak boleh bagi markah tinggi..''
很好!所以我吃自己
还被讲成绩退步
老师你错了!
我的成绩没有好过
退步你的大头鬼!
你要唠叨我也是没用的
    不如你帮我考咯
鬼知道我会酱笨啊?
我说千万遍
  不要逼我做我不喜欢的事
现在头大了咯
后果自负



全军覆没
我依然感觉良好!

2010年10月17日

依赖

''想太多的后果,竟然是依赖加重. ''



我想看清我自己
也想看清你.



心理学,会不会是个不错的课系?




依赖,想必也会变成负担.

Addicted ❤

I Love the way you kissing me.
I Love the way you hugging me.
I Love the way you holding my hand.
I Love the way you say I Love you.
I Love the way you say I miss you.

BaBe is you,I'm addicted to you.
I Cant pulled myself out.
I'm falling to you.
you'd hurt me,
but I blind all the way...


I Love the Smell of your body. 



I Love the way you Lie.

2010年10月14日

后遗症

事情的发生终究会有个了断,
只不过,断了以后呢?
如果那件事情是有严重性的
那么多多少少心理还是会有些不平衡.


情绪不稳定的夜晚
每分每秒都过得战战兢兢
我希望,一秒都不离开你身边
一秒也不愿意.....

电话接通了以后,马上词穷
很努力的挤出一段话,然后沉默不语
好几番次想杀了自己!
其实,我是坏女人
我竟然想学别人做侦探
敷衍两句又疑心病起!
我真的没救了...
没了安全感


变得神经质,怎么办?
很想给自己两巴掌!!

摇醒我吧!!


然而,我竟然学会了自言自语
我一定是神经病,因为我对着公仔讲话
朋友说那是纾解的一种方式
那我说,
我一定是对着公仔纾解心事的神经病!
找个心理医生给我吧 =[
为什么一定要说自己是神经病?
因为我找不到其他形容词来形容现在的自己


我的后遗症,
变得神经质,疑神疑鬼.自言自语,哭笑难分




宝贝,对不起 =[

2010年10月12日

Forget and Forgive

Something I dint expect will happening,at last it was happen to0
I'm hurt,but I'm Blind.
Be Strong all the time even I felt helpless in the middle of night.
I turn psyco and being skeptical to other,I mean to Him
I Gave him a Chance,because I love him.
No doubt,I'm Blind,Love Blind
At Last,I trust him once more time and I trust him wont do anything hurt me again
That BITCH is Loser,aren't?
You said,its already pass...
yea,passed.
I tell you,She is not your Cup of tea.
I know her.

Someone scolded me,and gonna kill me
but Sorry,This is me.

Guess what? He just like a poison
I can't stop drinking.....
How Crazy am I ?


Well,everything is Over.
I hope those thing not keep appear on my mind
I don't want sleepless night.
I don't want be your psyco GF




Forget and Forgive.

1010'❤

Today,I Woke up early and follow mama to UTC
Actually I only slept for 1 hours last night because of some Bitch stuff
Sleep on 6am wake up on 7am
Nice one xD  I Guess I'm Iron Woman.
Happy perfect day mama papa xD



12.30pm,Babe come fetch mii
*As he promise,today we are going to Queensbay Mall vv*
After that we go to fetch ahcong and rongzheng
Ahcong wanna go there meet his GF too ^^
but rongzheng wil lonely because Nicol working
*I'm stil not in Mood that time*
We are Crazy in da car.
OhYEA,Got another pair of Couple also, KZ n ARMY
I Forget what time we are reaching there but I know vry fast ==

We got no idea when step in Queensbay Mall
Then rongzheng bring us to 北海道 eat Ice Cream
Thanks rz becuase I like the flavour he introduce
The taste just like my GREEN TEA FRAP *Nice one*
After makan Ice Cream, we went to Old town
IceLemonTea was Suck and Babe order de Wheat grass also SUCK ==
At the same time,we are waiting for Cong's gf too.

Finally,She reached.
Very talkative gal and I stil dint get used to it
Anyway,as long Cong like it.
after that we having lunch,but how pity is that rz kena seperate by us.
he is follow cong them and mii,babe,kz,amy is together.

After having lunch,we start jalan jalan.
Actually today I want dating mia
I mean only YOU and ME one ==
at last also.......
forget it bah...~

After that we walk around and  I bought a jacket cost me RM29.
They not come here to shopping so they feel bored.
I'm so Sorry...my babe look tired =[

By the way,I feel the warmest and sweetness from you today.
Feel weirdo coz you got abit diffrence today if compare with narmal you xD
Thanks for you bought me baby boy Patrick to0
I LOVE YOU

At last we leaved Queesbay Mall at 6.30 because we need to bring Cong's gf back to Baling.
Funny stuff all happen in da car =]
Baling is where?I Asked myself and babe
and answer is duno..
*skip those detail*
When we thought we reach Baling,and then we saw sign board write
BETONG
THAILAND
I Feel like Laughing When I turn my head to babe
he just all quesntion mark on his head and shock face xDD
Never know we all come THAILAND
5~10min can reach THAILAND,Nice one! xDD
After drop Cong's gf,we go to petronas jalan awhile if not bone wil broke
all tired face xDD
we both talk til boh lat dy
When we reached SP already 1030pm
and then we went to Nasmir and I Almost fall asleep there ><''
Finally I reach home at 12am

hapii today but damn tired.
What a Nice 10 10 10 =]


HERE SOME PIC
Catching animal ==
SAME
pic taken by ARMY
half rz and no kz xD

kz n army.
The best adik dan abang xD

He is alwyz COOL =]
PITY RZ
^^
patrick head =]
Nice body he got xDDDD 

 pic taken by RZ and thanks coz I LOVE IT

















2010年10月10日

冷夜

原来假装镇定 比登天还难


第一秒钟,我的心停止跳动
下一秒钟,我的心却在打冷颤
最后一秒钟,我又开始全身颤抖


你看中了我的弱点
而你使出了你的强项

你说话太有说服力
强得让我信任你
听好,是完全信任你.

我错了,错在无知,错在单纯.


闭上眼,我看见那一字一句
鼻头一酸,我又崩溃了
每行字狠狠地刺进我心里


第六感原来可以准得可怕


爱情中能够允许几次的机会
如果只是一次,那我会不会被判死刑?
我一定无药可救了.

我说过
如果玩笑可以让人毙命
那你的所谓玩笑一定让我死了很多遍

现在,我又死了一次.


找更好的,可不可以在分手后?
不舍得又带着什么含义?
或许我依然应该选择视而不见


有血有肉的一颗心
可以承受多少次的打击?


现在凌晨4点50分
我不晓的如何挺着颤抖的身躯入眠

原来这是10月10日
你给我最好的礼物

You're BITCH !!!

YOU'RE BITCH !!!


HYE BITCH,BEHAVE URSELF BEFORE PEOPLE DO SOMETHING ON YOU.


YOU ARE FUCKING DAMN THIN LIKE ONLY LEFT THOSE WHITE BONE
AND I REMEMBER SOME PEOPLE CALL YOU WHITE BONE BITCH
NOW I TELL YOU BITCH
YOU ARE NOT ONLY IS A WHITE BONE BITCH 
BUT YOU ARE ALSO A WOLF BITCH 
YOU LIKE TO GRAB PEOPLE MAN BITCH?
OR YOU NEED A GUY BITCH?
GO THAILAND PLEASE!


HYE BITCH,DO YOU HAVE BRAIN?
I GUESS YOU'RE NOT
SO PLEASE FUCK URSELF AWAY!!


BITCH !!

2010年10月8日

Look Forward to 1010

Again,Our days is coming
1010 the day we together for half year.
Unexpected that We can Together for Six Month.
We never celebrate for it
but as ur promise,you say this coming Sunday wil brin me to Queensbay Mall
*CLAP CLAP*  imma Excited! 
Well,I Know you forget 1010 is what day.
Nevermind,I Know you're Forgetful =]
you know,Such a Long time We're not Dating
I mean Only YOU and ME
always hang out with your friends,almost 10 people sometime
Aha~I'm not Complaining...
okies,forget it...~ewhhhh~~~
I Know you wil say 'same also marr,u also can see my face what....'
yea larr...okies I Know it was same...so I said forget it ==''
Actually I Enjoyed the time with your friends also =] 


I appreicate every Single Moment that spended with you.


Don't forget I Said I want eat Takoyaki

I Hope that day you not have any emergency thing to do
God,please don't ruin my day.



I Wish to have our First picha on that day.

GoodMorning❤

God bless,
After 2o hours my stomach is empty,finally I ate Peach yougurt for my breakfast.
But I Only ate ONE YOGURT,only one then I FuLL dy...organ rosak huh?
Food poisoning make me suffer and I felt buoyant.
I Don't know whether my weight got lose or not but I hope so =]


Well,today I have a very GoodMorning too because my babe msg woke me up
had been so long time he dint call me baobei in da msg dy.
aha,I remember the last msg is on 16 July
now is what? OCTOBER already xD

I'm abit angry ><''
I Know you don't like me keep your msg in phone inbox and you say me Crazy 
So what?I Stil keep it ~~muahahhaah!


Hope today was A good day to0
Waiting for tonight date ~~phewit~~~



I Love u

一样

答案 未必真实 对吗?
追究下去 也许真的会变事实
你给了我想要的答案
却又矛盾地少了安全感
为什么你的语气会让我感觉不安
我希望那是我的错觉

昨晚我一定是疯了
才会突然崩溃大哭
你被吓惨了吧
被你骂了句'傻瓜' 还是什么的
印象中我记得了这句

我对你说
''你好像...又不要我了...''


说真的,我看到了3年前的情景
有点像...还是说...开始有点像
所以我变得神经质
不停的说我很怕
 那是真的



一直活在3年前的世界,很烦
一直忍不住做比较,很累
你不会知道没有安全感是怎么一回事
你说时间到了再打算
可是你会连打算的时间都不给我
这方面,我太了解你了
也许你开始在规划些什么
因为我发现你无意间逃避了我的问题



那一天,一定会到来
但我不希望是现在

2010年10月7日

玩笑

如果玩笑可以让人毙命,
那么你的玩笑早已让我死了上百遍.





分个轻重吧
不是每个玩笑我都受得起
如果你的那句话是真的,
也许我会选择视而不见;
或者上吊自杀,
仰或,成全离开.


这种假设性的问题
说出来的答案,
根本没有一定的根据


沉着气
也没有好心情



猜不透你那句话的真实性
我有一点焦急
身体又抖动了一下
心像被抽了一样
这又是第几次了
原谅我,
总表现得有点精神失常

2010年10月6日

I ❤ Starbucks


I totally Fall in Love to Starbuckss Coffee
hmmm,nope...Not Coffee! I Mean Green Tea Frappucino.
just I like to heading there to spent my Tea-time or else.
Not really remember since when I Fall in Love to Gree Tea Frap
I Only know I will ordered everytime I Went.

Green Tea+Milk+whipped cream
added Chocolate Chip for sometime.


I Love the Coffee Aroma inside Starbucks,it can Relax my Mind but I don't like the taste of Coffee =]

Well,had been couple of week I Dint step in Starbucks outlet because I Don't have much time and also my Financial problem ><'' how Sad is that.

I Food Poisoning right now,but I stil thinkin about Green Tea Frap! INSANE !

By the way,Green Tea Frap, WAIT ME !!





2010年10月4日

结束.开始

我的STPM试考就快结束,就剩下3天而已
简直就是人间地狱,完全没有头绪.
试考结束后再过一个月半的时间就是大考了
简直就是要我的命...
23/11 ~ 16/12
好久....怪难熬的
最痛恨考试!


说真的,不要再问我毕业后要读什么的烂问题
有钱读我还想当医生呢.


毕业后才是人生的开始勒
选什么科系就足以决定你一生
所以还是很多人走错路的


找个有钱人嫁出去算了




宝贝,我考完试后,一起旅行去吧!!
顺道庆祝我19岁生日 xD

BenSeng

BenSeng?
What's that?
of coz that is a name.
BenSeng is my friends,and also my Babe good friend.
Sorry I Not have his picture
if wanna know who is him,kindly go to facebook and key in 'Ben Seng'

Well,we call him Mr.kam yu lou and uncle sean call him ben10
I remembered first time I meet him is year 2006 at central square Pizza Hut
but I Cant remember was celebrate who birtday.He is Funny.I not reali like him that time.After that,I heard people say he is going to Ireland.hmmmm,I Not verry close with him and only msn for a few time.

Until this year 2010
he came back from Ireland.
After I Together back with babe,we meet him very often
We almost meet up every week,but I Stil no like him,because of his pattern.
After some time,I Felt that actually he is good and funny
He like to say he have aeroplane,helikopter,what without driver or what...
he definitely is BIG BOOMER. We already used to it.
he also like to flirt girl,especially xiao meimei.that's why we call him Mr.kam
I Guess he have thoudsand phone number in his phonebook.
Hmmm....he stil got alot bad thing to write but I'm lazy ><'' 
oh yea,He like to went to Autumn Cafe to see leng lui xD
and we usually went to Summer Pearl toO
and I Guess he like Tomyam mee tOo


By the way,why he so special can appear his name on my blog?
because he gonna go back to Ireland again.
Go back study and working I Guess.
I Got abit Sad xD
Don't misunderstanding,I Got no feeling to him xDD
the feeling just like less one friend to come out 'choi shui' , 'yam cha'
and no people say 'tao hin liao ,tao hin liao ' anymore...haha

So,BenSeng
We gonna Miss you,hahha
一路顺风.
wait you come back BOOM us Again.

2010年10月3日

马铃薯

Home-alone
my big brother and mama go to Alor Setar visit my grandparent
I'm not going.
my didi go to play badminton with his friends
So,I'm here online for few hour and Suddenly I FEEL starving.
I decide to cook POTATO SALAD.
actually I Not reali know how to make it but I thought it is easy.

Finally I FOUND 3 potato.

Well,when I started to cook potato
I asked myself How long shud i cook huh?
then I Just stand there and wait.
after few minits I use chopstick to cucuk the potato
hmmmm.....I Think sudah masak
then I Just SAVE my potato from HOTTT WATER
OMG!! Is so keras....
yea..I Guess not enuff masak so got abit hard ==''
but boh bian larr....I just cut the potatoes and apple *weird?*
throw it all into a big bowl...seem got alot...I Cant finish it ==
I Put some white pepper and LADY CHOICE MAYONIES *mayonies sebenar*
at last,I don't know why my potato become abit dark dark one ><''


errr,okies
I Done my HOME-MADE Potato Salad
but I Only can describe my salad with One word *GELI*
I promise myself I Wil not become a Cheff In future


p/s: I not dare to upload the picture up,it may shock you!and I Hope that later I Wont lao sai larr~





'' 我们太小看马铃薯了,它真不简单...''

2010年10月1日

无题



心痛,就是可以这样痛


这种歇斯底里的感觉最可怕


无助得想逃

 

依然要假装镇定

 

 

眼泪却让我措手不及

 

原来,我是脆弱的

 

MessyDay

Today,I'm moody.
because of me,two Brothers argueing now.
Sorry KZ n AMY
Sorry to Babe
I Don't know you wil take it serious,
I Don't know you wil so Angry.
Is all my Fault kay?
I'm Sorry...
I Don't know what I Gonna write now...
I'm in messy mood
you not even want talk to mii
I know u're angry mii to0...


I Cried badly and my hand was Shaking
I Felt helpless....


Can you please talk to me?


Please Forgive me.


I'm sorry babe
I'm sorry amy
I'm sorry kz
Stop the war kay?